Bedtime Prayer.

Dear God...

I am tired.  Really.  I don't think you undestand how much.  So, if you could manage, please stop sending me more to deal with.  I don't want anymore news or updates or anything else.  I think I am at the maximum level for personal drama.  THank you for the whole "He doesn't give you more than you can handle" line - but - I promise - I am there.  No need to send anymore my way.  I think I am out of tears.  Should have invested in wateproof mascara a long time ago.

Also.  A whole entire shower would be nice.  The kind that last longer than two minutes and involve having the time to remember to rinse out the conditioner AND to finish shaving the legs.  If you could just thold that pacifier in Landon's little mouth for a solid five minutes - I'd be in Shower Heaven.

Thank you. Thank you for somehow equipping me with this new found way of Keeping My Shit Together.  I am barely doing it - but, I'll take "barely" anyday.  I am trying to remember to say Thank You to my Mom and Dad like, A LOT.  And to be calm.  And to cry privately.  And to laugh at things I would have never thought about laughing about before.  Like how I filled the entire baby bathtub with water and then realized it was alll draining RIGHT into the kitchen floor.  Yeah. That was a good one.

Thank you for all the people who love me right now.  More importantly, for everyone who is loving all over my sweet son.  He is drowning in kisses.  Mostly from SB and JLo.  And half the city.  Thank you for the comfy rocking chair and all those sweet noises he makes when I snuggle him up close at night.

Thank you for Landon.  I know. I know. I waited for this my whole life.  You were right.  Something Good comes out of everything.  Sorry for doubting You on that one.  I know he came Express Mail from you - and, I promise - I will do my best job ever.

Oh. And ALRIGHT ALEADY. I should have LISTENED to all those people who told me that the best piece of advice they could give about having a boy was to "COVER IT" when changing diapers.  I GOT IT.

And that billboard I read today? Yeah. You know the one you shoved RIGHT in my face that said, "Patience is about doing things on God's time" - I think I needed to hear that.  Even though I have decided "subtle" is not Your strong point. 

xoxo

Rachael

Comments

[Ixnae]

Sweet note. Someone sent me this once:

Patience is not waiting, it's the attitude you have while you wait.

Peace is not the absent of conflict, it is the attitude you have while in the midst of conflict.

[Mimi]

Woo! Amen sista-
Well spoken.
xoMimi